Abby is home after a frightening 10-day hospital stay. Though she is not entirely well, she is well enough to be home. Yesterday she could not wait to be discharged, and last night she seemed particularly concerned that I sleep with her, which I did since I am over my illness as well.
Abby’s illnesses present atypically, as in a doctor might think trauma from a fall, but instead Abby is dehydrated from a fever. Additionally, her illnesses are often idiopathic, which can be very frustrating. A week ago I honestly thought I might lose her. I couldn’t eat or sleep – I lost ten pounds. I kept asking myself, “What would I do without her?” The answer was always that I don’t know.
I remind myself that when she’s sick, she’s the one who suffers the most, is the loneliest, has the most to lose.
It is an immense relief to have her home.